Finding the curse:
I was a normal and happy woman. Still I believe I am.
But since last few days I am flooded with sympathy from all who knows 'I have been diagnosed with Cancer'. Sympathy sounds good sometimes but when it comes from people who actually are not concerned about you and fake, that sympathy is unbearable.
Going back few months, I had few cysts(multiple lipomas) in my body. Which doctors said were harmless. So I never was worried about them. But my parents wanted me to get rid of them because of cosmetic reasons.
So there I was, taking off from my very busy work life, back in my hometown in the early summer.
As the doctor explained me, the procedure will be simple surgeries, which can be done under local anesthesia. However I decided for a general anesthesia and got the surgery done. And day by day I started to recover healing all my wounds. Feeling the warmth of summer and waiting for getting back to work. That was kind of a very long holiday for me, my mom used to prepare all shorts of dishes I liked including fresh water fish in mustard gravy and home made cakes.
Absence of high speed internet barred me bothering about my office work. However occasionally I used to sneak in to my office mails. But that was all office work.
My daily routine started with birds singing in my backyard. Then the entire day I will watch some TV, listening to songs, reading books(my favorite one). In the evening I will water our garden and sit by the lawn till dinner time enjoying calm and cool breeze.
When schools were closed due to summer vacation , I will have my little cousins coming over all the time. Asking my mom to prepare there favorite dishes , telling me all their stories from school, there teachers, functions, home works, craft works. And I was happy to listen. Then I had a old thing with kids sharing fairytells an disney movies. And sometime we together used to watch those mvies in my laptop.
Those days I had only worries of the flowers of my gardens and mangoes in mango trees in our back yard, home grown berries and tender coconut water . Also we were waiting for Holi, the festival of colors which was approaching.
Adding to my happiness , I got a mail saying that I will be going to Switzerland for my office assignments. Summer in Switzerland, how exciting. I started to plan my trips around Europe
It was already 2 weeks since my surgery. All the cysts sent for biopsy and result yet to come. But doctor said it was only formality. The day the report came, we went to the hospital to collect it.
When doctor checked the report, he looked worried but said nothing to worry and there is a minor situation. For that I needed to go through another surgery as soon as possible. Then he asked for few more tests.
I was not able to understand, if the issue is minor why they want me to go through another surgery asap? I was not convinced. I wanted to go to another hospital and get the reports checked. But my parents panicked as always, got me admitted same day, and next day evening supposed to be my surgery. I thought ok, I have gone through surgeries before so this time also I will deal with it.
But I did not know this time I needed to stay in hospital for more than 10days. I had to extend my leave from office and I was not getting anywhere close to get back to my regular life. Day and night in the hospital bed, could not move, hearing the words injections, stitches, medicines, Started to forget how it is outside a room. In this situation I was just hoping my Switzerland trip should happen. Imagining snow covered alps and lush green fields and pine forest was giving me some hope that everything will be fine soon and in no time I will be having drinks busy chit chating with my friends in Zurich. I remembered when I came to my senses after my surgery , First thing I asked to doctor that is there any issue with my abroad trip and I got the answer as no issues.
After I came back from hospital, its again the same healing process but somehow it was way slower and difficult than previous one.
Again there was multiple tests and I could not understand when these things will be over.
Finally after several weeks and several tests reports, I had an appointment with doctor where I assumed to get a final report and set free for my daily life. Still I have pain in my body but in my heart I was going strong.
Then comes the day , when I met the doctor. And then he told me and my parents , it is cancer that I was dealing with.
I was a normal and happy woman. Still I believe I am.
But since last few days I am flooded with sympathy from all who knows 'I have been diagnosed with Cancer'. Sympathy sounds good sometimes but when it comes from people who actually are not concerned about you and fake, that sympathy is unbearable.
Going back few months, I had few cysts(multiple lipomas) in my body. Which doctors said were harmless. So I never was worried about them. But my parents wanted me to get rid of them because of cosmetic reasons.
So there I was, taking off from my very busy work life, back in my hometown in the early summer.
As the doctor explained me, the procedure will be simple surgeries, which can be done under local anesthesia. However I decided for a general anesthesia and got the surgery done. And day by day I started to recover healing all my wounds. Feeling the warmth of summer and waiting for getting back to work. That was kind of a very long holiday for me, my mom used to prepare all shorts of dishes I liked including fresh water fish in mustard gravy and home made cakes.
Absence of high speed internet barred me bothering about my office work. However occasionally I used to sneak in to my office mails. But that was all office work.
My daily routine started with birds singing in my backyard. Then the entire day I will watch some TV, listening to songs, reading books(my favorite one). In the evening I will water our garden and sit by the lawn till dinner time enjoying calm and cool breeze.
When schools were closed due to summer vacation , I will have my little cousins coming over all the time. Asking my mom to prepare there favorite dishes , telling me all their stories from school, there teachers, functions, home works, craft works. And I was happy to listen. Then I had a old thing with kids sharing fairytells an disney movies. And sometime we together used to watch those mvies in my laptop.
Those days I had only worries of the flowers of my gardens and mangoes in mango trees in our back yard, home grown berries and tender coconut water . Also we were waiting for Holi, the festival of colors which was approaching.
Adding to my happiness , I got a mail saying that I will be going to Switzerland for my office assignments. Summer in Switzerland, how exciting. I started to plan my trips around Europe
It was already 2 weeks since my surgery. All the cysts sent for biopsy and result yet to come. But doctor said it was only formality. The day the report came, we went to the hospital to collect it.
When doctor checked the report, he looked worried but said nothing to worry and there is a minor situation. For that I needed to go through another surgery as soon as possible. Then he asked for few more tests.
I was not able to understand, if the issue is minor why they want me to go through another surgery asap? I was not convinced. I wanted to go to another hospital and get the reports checked. But my parents panicked as always, got me admitted same day, and next day evening supposed to be my surgery. I thought ok, I have gone through surgeries before so this time also I will deal with it.
But I did not know this time I needed to stay in hospital for more than 10days. I had to extend my leave from office and I was not getting anywhere close to get back to my regular life. Day and night in the hospital bed, could not move, hearing the words injections, stitches, medicines, Started to forget how it is outside a room. In this situation I was just hoping my Switzerland trip should happen. Imagining snow covered alps and lush green fields and pine forest was giving me some hope that everything will be fine soon and in no time I will be having drinks busy chit chating with my friends in Zurich. I remembered when I came to my senses after my surgery , First thing I asked to doctor that is there any issue with my abroad trip and I got the answer as no issues.
After I came back from hospital, its again the same healing process but somehow it was way slower and difficult than previous one.
Again there was multiple tests and I could not understand when these things will be over.
Finally after several weeks and several tests reports, I had an appointment with doctor where I assumed to get a final report and set free for my daily life. Still I have pain in my body but in my heart I was going strong.
Then comes the day , when I met the doctor. And then he told me and my parents , it is cancer that I was dealing with.
